I feel horrible that so much happened to my friends over the past couple of days and I wasn't able to be there and comfort them. I took a short break from my computer after spending hours upon hours on a commission. I tend to do that after I draw. So, if you posted over the past few days and I didn't leave a comment it isn't because I don't care! o.o;;; It's because I avoided the stresses of comp. living for a few days.
Short post I know, but I love you all! ^.^~
Hrm, what should I post? Gackto? :D
:D Gackt amuses me. My fangirlishness caused me to squeal happily through this.
Sorry band kids, Mauri won't be coming to the first football game. *pouts* I couldn't get anyone at work to cover my shift so I can't come. But I should be there for at least a couple of home games. *nods*
So, life has been pretty boring. I don't have any real friends at college and the only bright part of my day is that my english class is full of asians. :D So that's a perk! I'm doing okay at school, I'm only part time to get my gen eds covered before I'm off to San Franny. So it's pretty much just 6 hours of school twice a week. American history is ridiculously easy, >.>;;; at least if I do well on my test it's easy.........
English is fine. I've missed a couple assignments due to the fact that the teacher doesn't believe in following her own syllabus. It's me getting there and her going. "Pass in your assignments!" But thanks to Thornton's class I'm at a pretty high level of writing.
O.o....we had an assignment?
I severly miss Whitney and Crystal..........severly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's hard not have best friends around anymore.
Eh, I dunno if Morgan reads this....but we should like go see a movie or something. I miss my friends. *whines*
It's a really old video....reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy old. I think the Kinki Kids were teens in this video....which was like ten years ago. O.o;;
Glad to say that Tsuyoshi's(black hair) is no longer that odd looking and Koichi(long hair) hasn't really changed...O.o;;; He's AGELESS!
I decided today that I would finally post a journal entry that I've had for quite awhile.
I've
become timid over my senior year. I'm no longer the shoulder to lean on
when one of my friends are sad or depressed. No one calls me to talk or
ask if I'm okay.
I'm fading into the background and being left behind.
This goes along with alot of my friends, so if you think it's personal..most likely it isn't.
I
once had someone tell me that my world shouldn't revolve around them, I
was tempted to tell them not to flatter themselves. My world doesn't
revolve around one of my friends, my world revolves around my friends
as a whole. When I was younger, I would just let my friends fade
away....because it couldn't be helped. I was growing older and it was
just something that happened when you were a kid.
But I
however, am no longer a child. I'm an adult and I was raised in a
family where your friends were people you stuck by, no matter how kind
or mean they were to you. So I stick by my friends, through thick and
thin.
Yet, now I find myself wanting to be just a little
selfish. I used to let my friends walk all over me, like I was some
kind of dog they could kick, but would still love them in the end.
However, I've become just a little selfish and I no longer want to be
that kind of friend.
I want someone to call me to hang out or talk.
I want to have someone to lament to.
I want to have a friend that cares about me just as much as I care about them.
Like
I said before, this isn't personal it's just a wide opinion that I have
made about some of my friends. They may not be entirely this way and I
prefer to just say that some are a little, some are completely and some
not at all.
However, this is just the rant of a friend to friends and it's not like anyone cares for my opinions anyways.
